Happy birthday to me. :)
As the entire nation wrestles with how to handle a near full shutdown, there are many of us who have become painfully aware of how alone we are. The daily grind use to deaden our pain, directing it away and allowing us to forget our lack of intimacy with another human being. I'm speak both physically and mentally.
We ALL long to be known and to know someone completely. This is the most important part of any relationship — transparency.
But now, thanks to COVID-19, many of us are stuck inside, weeks on end, and realizing just how painful that loneliness can be. Trust me, I'm right there with you. I'm sure by the fall, we'll all be back to doing what we normally do — working on site, laughing with friends, hanging out, even dating... but at this moment, things are clearer now that they've ever been: people matter.
And if you don't have someone to be transparent/intimate with, you're realizing this even more.
At this point, following my divorce, craziness in business, and then COVID-19... I've collapsed a bit. Nothing like after my ex blindsided me and walked out, but still enough to deplete my energies and stir up a healthy dose of depression.
As I continue to pray and seeking God, I'm noticing all the amazing things in my life have happened because I... took a walk out the front door. Obviously, that's hard with COVID-19, but I think their is more to what He's leading and prompting as I read through Ecclesiastes and Isaiah.
I think I need to start thinking about serving God in the same way He taught me through running a business. I think I need to take more leaps of faith. I have no idea what that looks like... or even if it's possible. So many people in my old circles had expectations of performance, and I shattered every one of them with being an entreprenuer and throwing the 9-5 to the side... so much so that classic Christian platitudes didn't have the same context for me as they did for others.
I think God is lead me to take another step of faith, as He did when He called me to run a business back in 2009. I just have a feeling it's going to be something crazy. Oddly, I'm not terrified. He knows it needs to be done, and I'm just doing His will.
— Micah